desertwind

Today, cold season is starting here in my place (Saudi Arabia). Our place is totally covered with fog even until 7 o'clock in the morning. Humidity is very high & I can inhale the tiny water particles in the air. My eyeglasses is so moisty when I am outside & when I am driving to work, I gotta use the wiper to see the road. In few days, rain will be expected to come. Rainy season before the cold season comes is now a usual thing here in Saudi Arabia, and based on what I have observed in the last few years, rainy days are getting longer. Strange huh? Here in my place, huge drainage systems are already installed, the installation started last year after we got flooded here due to heavy rains.

Lot of things happened today. I got a very nice morning, I woke up early and gotta time to make my own coffee & eat rusk cake while checking out the news from BBC. Then during break time, I was able to watch this very nice movie. The movie was “Joe Somebody” and the main actor was Tim Allen. You gotta watch this movie because the character is so interesting! The turning point of this movie, was when Joe told himself, WHAT IS IT THAT I WANT?? And yes, everything really happens for a reason. This movie will not waste your time, I’m sure.

And this afternoon, guess what?? I received an email with full of emotions & disappointments from a fellow about some emails of non-conformances that I sent to his department. I didn’t get upset; I just explained to him my side and my responsibilities. I hope he understands me. You know, I find it very interesting why lots of people are so paranoid to accept their shortcomings??

I have read one book and it says there "human beings' foremost obsession is the urge to become important & be appreciated." 

I am dead tired today. Can't squeeze out my brain anymore, its too darn tired. Gonna go home now to rest.. I want to have a nice nap, or just lie down over the couch & check out my Cruisin' mp3 collections. Or maybe Enya's songs, dunno which is better. Just want to relax for a lil while, cause I need to go later to meet some important friends. Bummer!

I would love to come & see her for the last time. Never seen her for years. Then, the time has come that I will be able to check her out so that we can have some nice talkin'. But things are not that easy, things are sometimes hard to explain.

I would love to see her, yes I do! But, I decided no to come & let her got upset. I made a right decision though.

This is a bad day. Definitely. I can't think much of things that I should do to overcome this trials that I am experiencing right now. Life is so unfair sometimes, when you are doing something bad and you don't care about it, then it seems that life is so easy & pass you by just like that. But when you realized and try to reverse it; when you are trying to straighten things up & gather all the broken pieces of yourself, then suddenly – it becomes so hard to live the Life. I am not saying that I am having a hard time doing it, but it seems so ironic that these big TRIALS now are coming & trying to put me down - and why at this moment that I am trying to put my life in the right place? Maybe because of “What you Reap is what you Sow” thing? But what the heck! I ain’t got no responsibilities to others! I mean, I never took advantage to anybody! And sometimes I am getting into trouble by defending others!

Maybe, you’ll gonna say that – hey! This is not all about you & others! It’s about the sum up of all the things you’ve done! Unfortunately, you’re right. Darn! I don’t like this feeling. It seems that I am trying to justify those faults that I have done before. I have to live with that, I know.

One thing that I must do, I need to hold on & tell to myself that this “bad day” is just a “not so good day.” I need to do something to solve these uncertainties and maybe tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, things will just work out fine.

May God help me & give me strength to overcome these "So Called Parts of Life."

I want to dedicate this blog to my sistah Hazel. I will not post anything today than this one. Today is her special day and I wanted to give this day for her. I have never seen her for quite a while, but I am glad that we're still keeping in touch until now. I got lots of memories that remind me of her. She is my former housemate; we rented a house along with my youngest brother (Ruel) and Jhen (Hazel's best friend) when I am still working in Manila.

Hazel is a very sweet person and I never seen her got angry except when she was fighting with Jhen, hehehe.. It's no big deal though, this two gorgeous women when fighting is just like they want to turn our place up side down, hehehe.. I usually stay in my room and kept silent when they're doing their “War of the Roses” version. The good thing is after a little while; they were end up laughing to each other because maybe of the silly things they've done.

Hazel really likes to stay at home sometimes and listen to some sentimental songs & poppin' out some smoke. She's not a smoker but she smokes when she feels to. We talked lots of things, but she didn't want to reveal some of her secrets to me, well that's fine, it’s a girl thing though. She smiles & laughs a lot! That's the good thing in her, she smile for no reason at all! When I am with her, she makes the moment so short that sometimes I want to extend the time to be with her & be inspired with her wittiness & absurdness. She's like a real sister to me, maybe because we don't have girls in the family except of course my mother. I still remember her favorite song, I just don't know if until now she still longs to hear that song over & over again. I used to like the song also but it is not applicable to me anymore, heheh..

Well.. All I can say is "I got a sister in her" she's great! I would never ever forget her for the rest of my life.

For you Sis HAZEL -- A very HAPPY BIRTHDAY!


"Life is good only when it is magical and musical, a perfect timing and consent, and when we do not anatomise it. You must treat the days respectfully...You must hear the bird's song without attempting to render it into nouns and verbs."

Don't know sometimes I am getting tired of everything I do. Sometimes, being angry to those who annoyed you suddenly becomes a hard thing. Maybe because it is so common that I am getting fed up already and it seems that I am the one who got more affected. I can't get any good thing at it, I know. So, better not to do it. Let's see..

1. Procrastination and avoidance of things you have to face.
2. Personal sloppiness.
3. Compulsiveness about work or house cleaning habits.
4. Being overweight.
5. Growing old while still young.
6. People who are always late.
7. Indiscreet, free-loading or depressing friends.
8. Incompetents.
9. Psychic vampires who drain you of energy by demanding you constantly play crisis councelor.
10. Social boors and sexual bores.
11. Nagging, envy/jealousy from mates or friends.
12. Put-downs.
13. Arrogant doormen, salespeople and waiters.
14. Sticking with a job you hate.
15. Living in the past or future instead of enjoying the moment now.